I have a confession to make- tonight was the first time in 32 years I've asked someone to help me exercise. I've tried running on my treadmill in the basement occasionally, enjoy hiking and outdoor activities, but always had an excuse for why I couldn't get more in shape. I commute 2 hours a day. I have 2 kids. I don't have time with work. I really just didn't want to and those were lies I told myself. I accepted my body for all the amazing things it's been through but never really took care of it. I've coached people who were trying to lose weight and develop healthier habits so I knew what to do, I was just more comfortable doing nothing.
Over the weekend when I went kayaking with my family, I found myself being afraid to go too far down the river for fear my arms wouldn't hold up for the trip back. I have an inner monologue of self doubt that I've trained myself to silence over the years, but this was different. I never let fear stop me from doing anything, but in this case I played it safe. It made me realize that my body doesn't reflect the strength of the person I am and that I needed help to do something about it.
As I advise others to surround themselves with the best influences to push beyond their comfort zones, I immediately thought of MEADE CrossFit. Tonight I had an awesome first workout and can't wait to go back again next week.
I'm sharing this not to get a pat on the back for asking someone to make me sweat for a half hour, but because I know we all have something we're putting off. Maybe it's a tough conversation, a relationship that needs repaired, or developing healthier habits. I firmly believe the devil isn't sitting around trying to convince us to lie, cheat, and steal- his most effective weapon is procrastination. Putting off until tomorrow something we should do today. Settling for less than our best. Staying comfortable. We were created with so much more potential and to know there's something you need to do but not mustering to will to make it happen is sinful. It's taking for granted and rejecting what you've been given.
So yes, I'm scared for future workouts. I may throw up, pass out, be the slowest, the last one done, the weakest. But I won't let fear and complacency stop me. If I can do it, you can too. Get to work.